I am always seeking an audience - even if that audience is just myself.

I am always seeking an audience, even if that audience is just (that spurious notion) of myself.



Marvin Carlson, elucidates on this: 

All performance involves a consciousness of doubleness, through which the actual execution of an action is placed in mental comparison with a potential, an ideal, or a remembered original model of that action. Normally this comparison is made by an observer of the action.  Performance is always performance for someone, some audience that recognizes and validates it as performance even when that audience is the self. (Performance: a critical introduction, 1996, pp.5-6).

Peter  Cheevers