I am pleased with mysefl for getting started....but who is the elusive who I am pleased with

We inhabit a world, a world that is highly self-conscious, reflexive, obsessed in every aspect of its social awareness, with performance as a kind of critical wedge, the metaphor of theatricality has moved out of the arts into almost every aspect of modern life and into every branch of the sciences from sociology, to anthropology; ethnography; psychology, and linguistics. So performance is indeed an increasingly importantly yet complicated and shifting field.

But how do we evaluate performance? If I reflect on my own performance in say getting started on this blob and say, ‘I am pleased with my self to have finally got started on this...’ Yet who am I pleased with?  In searching for an answer I find there is an elusiveness to this other that I commend myself to which I am constantly trying to please and embody. I realise I am in a state of unfulfilled dynamic with that other. 
Dr Peter P. Cheevers